Self Realizations

It's been over 2 weeks since I've been back in Minnesota and I feel like I'm doing the same thing over and over again.  I wake up, get Logan breakfast, play games with him (more like watch him as he runs circles around me), put him down for a nap, do a whole lot of nothing, make him lunch, play some more, get dinner ready, put Logan to bed, watch the news with my dad, then go to bed myself.  I know, it's pretty exciting stuff huh.  It's a routine, and although routines aren't necessarily a bad thing, I never seem to do well when I have a routine like this.  I feel like there's something missing.  Like I should be doing something else, like going to work!!!

I feel that I need to tell every single stay-at-home mom(or dad), nanny, daycare provider, teacher, and babysitter that they must be some pretty incredible people!!  I have an 18 month old son (not multiples, not twins, just one) and I can barely keep up with having only him!  To be honest it makes me want to cry a little bit when I think about that last sentence.  I have no clue how you people are able to do it and maintain a respectable level of sanity (but seriously, what's your secret??).  Don't get me wrong, I love my little dude more than I could ever say, but some days I feel like I can only handle him for so long before he's pressed every button I have and I'm ready to put myself in a time-out just to get some space.  I'm definitely not meant to be a stay-at-home mommy, and these past few weeks have only confirmed that.  On the flip side, I'm not one who can be a workaholic either.  If I love my job (like I did at Strathmore) then it's easy for me to work longer hours and spend a little more time away from my friends and family to get the job done.  However, there is always a breaking point to both.

Which brings me to this week's self realization: I need and thrive on variety. 

Whether it's with my job and what I do each day, to the routines that I have at home, or with whom I choose to spend my time with, I need change.  Property management positions seem to always fill that need for variety for me so I'm on the right track on that point.  I really suck at having a daily routine so that's probably why I can never stick with them or any other kind of routine for that matter.  I love seeing friends and family on a regular basis, so I tend to be in better moods when I'm around them, but I like to switch it up and see new faces every so often.  Now the fun part, putting it all into a cohesive balance that = my life!  If you happen to know the solution to this crazy puzzle, now is not the time to be keeping secrets.  So while I seek out on this quest called life to find the answers, I hope you all are having a wonderful Tuesday! :)

Here are some e-cards that I thought were pretty appropriate for this fun post!

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