Where has time gone??

It feels like forever since I've last posted. I know that's no big surprise, but it is just another reminder for myself that I need to slow down and take things one day at a time. For those of you who are keeping track, I'm about 17 weeks and 4 days as of today (Thursday). I have another appointment on the 12th of this month and then I get to schedule my appt. for the gender sonogram!!!! Yay! We're so excited to find out if we're going to be having a little boy or a little girl. I actually just got done starting our Babys R Us registry. It only has a few basics on there at the moment, but hopefully we'll be able to add more to it in a few weeks.

A few weeks ago, Bryan and I flew back to MN for my cousin's wedding. It's been about 2 weeks since I've been home and the homesickness is only getting worse. I can't stand being away from my family, especially now that we're expecting a little one. We both grew up being very close to our family, extended family, and close family friends. Who am I to take that away from my baby? It'll be hard no matter what happens because I really won't be happy living in Kansas the rest of my life, and he won't be happy living in MN for the rest of his. We'll have to come up with some kind of compromise. As of lately the closest I've been able to get is Lincoln, NE. Granted that's only 7 hrs away instead of 15, so if that's the best I can do I'll take it! It's only become more clear now that my sister has finally had her little bundle of joy that the want to be near my family is now more like a need. I want to see my little niece Ava grow up and experience things for the first time. I want her to know who I am when I come to visit. I want my baby to know her cousins and her aunt and uncle and grandparents and all of our family friends that had such a huge hand in raising me when I was little. It just doesn't seem fair that my baby has to miss all of these things just because Bryan wants a job that will pay a few thousand more a year. I'm sorry, but it just doesn't add up when you figure in the higher cost of living on the west coast or in a large city, compared to not getting paid as much and staying in the cheaper mid-west.

If you haven't already guessed it, I'm pretty much over living in Colorado. I mean don't get me wrong, it's a beautiful state and there's plenty to do....if you have the time and the money and the resources (which we pretty much won't have any of the above for quite some time). I can't stand the unpredictable weather! We've had snow already....TWICE! I would rather take the colder MN winters than deal with this crap for 6 months. Well I suppose, that's enough ranting for now. I hope that everyone had a safe and happy halloween this past Monday, and I can't wait to see everyone again soon. Love and miss you all!