It seems like the moment things start to look up in life, there's always got to be something to knock it back down. Friday afternoon was very rough as life just seemed to take me for a nasty ride. Looking at all of our bills and comparing it to our income, things are being cut a lot closer than I would like for them to. To top it all off, Twilight came out and I had no one to go see it with. It was a bit of a depressing day to say the least.
Saturday then rolls around and I worked another early shift from 4am to noon. After that, Bryan and I decided to hang out with some friends and we all went out to eat at Gunther Tooties before going to the movies (Bryan surprised me and asked if I'd want to go with him to see Breaking Dawn). That was a huge shock and I was excited that my day seemed to be turning around. It of course couldn't last and while we were in the middle of eating I got a phone call from my sister telling me that my mom was in the hospital. She just had surgery on Friday and I was told everything went fine so I was scared that maybe something was overlooked. They ran a multitude of tests and couldn't figure anything out. It's Monday and she's still in the hospital. Things haven't improved or changed much which scares me even more. They're very worried about the condition of her heart and might have to do surgery to put a pacemaker in. I'm falling apart at the seams and it takes everything I have to keep myself from breaking down and crying through out the day. Bryan can't stand to see me hurting like this and is practically pushing me out the door to go fly back to MN and see my mom. Every part of my heart is ready to go, but all my mind can think about is how we should be using that money towards paying bills and be responsible.
The original plan was that I wouldn't see my mom until April for when the baby comes. At this rate, if something were to happen to her before hand, I don't think I could forgive myself for putting bills before her. There would be a ton of positives to going back this weekend. I could see for myself that my mom is ok or at least spend time with her and be there for her, I could see my family for Thanksgiving, I could finally meet and hold my niece/goddaughter Ava, I could see my best friend one last time before she leaves for basic training, and I could compare bellies with my cousin who is due just before I am. There's just so many more positives to me going than not. The kicker is that there's no way that we can afford a last minute plane ticket at $350 or more. Instead, I've found a different way to travel. Hello, Greyhound! They have a military discount that I can use that will bring me to Minneapolis and back for only $209. It'll be a day of travel there and back, but I think it's worth it for the amount that we'll be saving. Wish me luck and safety!
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