While on my little hiatus, I made a few more discoveries about myself.
1)I need to be more open and honest with myself, with God, and with those around me.
2)I want to rely more on Him for things that are out of my control, rather than on Google, FB, or any other social media craze.
3)I need to do something more serious about my health and daily living.
4)I need to make time. For myself, for Logan, for friends and family, and for strangers.
It seems pretty straight forward and easy enough, right? I certainly hope so. These are areas in my life that I seem to regularly fall off track. I say that I'm going to start a new health routine, but after 3-4 days I've already stopped. I put it out for the world to see on facebook what is going on with my life and with Logan, but I forget to tell the one person who already knows (the big man upstairs). I prefer to tell the world a sugar coated version of the truth to keep people from judging me. I could go on and on with examples, but you get the picture. I need to start sticking with my original intentions and seeing them through to the very end.
I'll be the first to admit, I'm slightly terrified about some of them. Being honest with myself is a big one. Like all of the areas that I listed, this is going to take a lot of hard work, dedication, and willingness to be open and vulnerable. I've let people down and hurt others in the past because I wasn't willing to be honest with myself. I want nothing more than to make amends for those actions and to begin moving forward.
My hope is that by putting this out there for the world to see that I will be able to hold myself better accountable for my thoughts and actions. Here's a little spoiler alert: I'm going to make a lot of mistakes. It'll be good though. Mistakes help to keep you humble. That and if you can learn from my mistakes simply by reading them, then you've saved yourself a bucket load of frustration in the process!
Hang on, it's gonna be a bumpy road!
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