Keep calm and be strong

As some of you may know I grew up with an older sister and a younger brother, this put me in the middle.  I'll admit, yes, I definitely experienced the proverbial "middle child" syndrome from time to time.  It did manage to have its perks some days so I couldn't complain too much. 

One of those perks was that I didn't have to be the strong one in our family.  Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually(and anything else you can think of), I was never the one that others looked to for support or guidance.  While it helped me in the past, it has become a hindrance in the present.  Life has thrown me some pretty wonky cards in the past 4 years.  Each of which has forced me to rely more so on myself and become a stronger person. 

Normally I'd be all for personal growth but I'm going to let you in on a little secret.........I'm terrified.  It's not that I don't want to be a strong person.   However, instead of having to grow and be strong for just me, I now have to have double the amount of strength for Logan as well.  He is very perceptive and understands more and more every single day.  I never want him to think that I'm not a strong mom.  Given our current settings I feel like I'm already pulling double duty on a lot of things.  The last thing I need is to fail in any capacity. 

They say that everything takes practice, commitment, and time in order to become successful.  That same principle can be applied in order to make something become a part of your daily life.  Well if that's the case then it looks like I've got some serious homework to do.  Looks like I'll need to take a page out of my little brother's handbook to just "Keep calm and be strong". 

This won't be one of my easier challenges in life, but like all things, it'll be worth it in the end.  I hope that everyone else is able to find their own strength during tough times.  Until next time. :)