Most of my every day life consists of cooking, cleaning, watching movies, talking to my friends and family from back home, and staring at the vaulted ceiling of my bedroom. It's pretty boring to say the least. It gets very lonely sitting inside knowing that everyone that I want to see is at least 1,000 miles away. I never thought it would really be this hard to deal with the reality that I'll be lucky if I see them twice a year. I've decided that I can't let the miles get between friendships and seeing my loved ones. I need to make it back to MN at least once this summer, and I'm ready to use any excuse that I can think of to make that happen. Don't get me wrong, the weather and beautiful scenery definitely tops what MN can offer, but it's not the same without family. I read the fb status' of my preggo sister and wish that I could be there to watch her belly grow, or join my friends as they have a girls night filled with wine and movies, or attend graduation parties and summer bbq's. I've cried more than I like to admit over the little things like this, although I try to hide it as much as possible from Bryan. I thought that finally getting to see my husband every day and fall asleep next to him every night would be enough to make me happy. Again, don't think that I don't absolutely love those moments, but it's only enough to make me mostly happy. My hope is that if I can occupy enough of my time to distract me from these feelings of lonliness, that I can make it out here alone.
So onto the exciting news...I got a job...two actually!!! I start my first one this saturday and then my next one starts the saturday after. They're both care taker jobs, which is something that I love to do. I'm excited to finally have a reason to get out of the house and feel like I'm contributing financially to my little family of two. Here's to hoping that it'll be enough.
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