Next big freak out!

For those of you who don't know, I'm the kind of person that needs to plan things out and be in control, or at least try to be. When I'm not I do the only thing I know how to do, FREAK OUT!!! I have anxiety attacks frequently. My latest reason to put me over the top is that I haven't been able to find my 2009 tax information and without it I can't apply for my fafsa, meaning I can't figure out how I'm going to pay for school, meaning I'M SCREWED! To make matters worse, in order to figure out how to get a copy of my tax information I'd have to call my ex and/or his parent. I'm too chicken shit to even attempt the second option. I'm not having a good day :(
On the bright side, I had the day off and spent two hours laying out by the pool, and now I'm spending the evening with one of my favorite ladies, Nicole. We've got a fun filled evening of watching movies, doing laundry, and ordering pizza! Hopefully it'll be enough to turn my day around.